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Wednesday, 27 August 2008
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Forgiveness...it's the key.
Of course I have been very angry at my father, but no matter what he is still my father and as much as I wanted to give up on him in the past now I want to hold on tighter than ever. I want to repair all the years of damage I want to build on that and I want him in my life and if she can’t understand that. if she can’t get past all her pent up anger and just be there for him or at least speak to him and about him without disdain, then no, she is not going to keep me here...not anymore...I became a christian when I was 18, but I am not sure I learned how to truly forgive till this past year. maybe two years...it’s just too much to keep all that aggression and anger inside of you. You only have one like and that kind of anger is just not good, you can’t live a full life with that much anger. Sometimes things just have to be let go. They happened, but it wasn’t the end of the world, so man up and forgive, it’s huge and it helps a lot. I can’t wait to throw my arms around my dad’s neck at the airport on Friday, ever since we started talking again I’ve just been waiting for the day I would get to run up to him and throw my arms around him, sad it’s taking me 25 years to get here, but I really can’t wait. Getting a hug is so amazing and I think this one will never be forgotten.
Saturday, 16 August 2008
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Update...Rant...& Randomness
I started my exciting adventure into work with polymer clay, more than just cupcakes. The new pieces have me combining my love of rubber stamps, coloring and clay all together to make some pretty interesting new pieces. Hopefully will have pictures up tomorrow sometime. I have procured a pasta machine (to make flat and thin slices of clay) as well as a small oven (to bake the clay). I have even purchased some more rubber stamps to make cool collages with for the pendants. The first ones turned out pretty good, but I can't wait to experiment even more. Tomorrow there is a bead show, which should be exciting as always. I am looking into attending a glass bead making class, but haven't found one close to home yet. So that will have to wait...at least for now.
I have been keeping a close eye on the Olympics (mainly gymnastics and Swimming though). I was happy to see despite some weird scoring that Liukin and Johnson pulled off Gold and Silver Individual medals. And watching Phelps pull off his 7th medal, with a single tenth of a point was exhilarating. I almost thought he had lost it...and then no, he won!! I can't wait to see number 8. I bet he is full of nerves now. He always seems so clam, but seeing his face after that race you could tell he wasn't sure he had won it, and then as the names appeared you watched the smile spread across his face and then they showed how his mother couldn't take the pressure either, falling back in her seat so elated for her son. That was wonderful. I also watched as Mark Spitz congratulated Phelps and caused him to be speechless for a bit. I can't wait to watch the gymnastic finals.
I go on a small vacation in 2 weeks and I am really excited. This is the first time ever I will be going and visiting my dad alone. He and I are both very excited. He is going to teach me how to cook and we are thinking about having a picnic in the park. Who knows what else we will end up doing. But for the first time he is also going to be picking me up from the airport and I am so glad. I can't wait to see him. Even though it will be a small trip I think it will be good for both of us.
I can not sleep for the life of me and my back hurts not too mention my leg. Gah. I sometimes really hate being an insomniac. It seems I never sleep well I am always tired (physically) and I just can't get any energy to do anything productive. Sometimes I do wonder if there is something wrong with me. Who knows. I can't believe that out of the 10 people I have on my BL right now 9 of them are "mobile" seriously...it's a little crazy. When did we start having to be that connected to the internet that we needed to be "mobile" at all times. It's crazy. Even though I know half of them would not answer an IM on their phones...so what exactly is the point??
These are the things I think about when I can't sleep. Just random things. Like really why do you need your cell phone at a movie?? And if you need it that bad, could you please take the damn thing OUTSIDE and please for the love of cinema put it on vibrate (at the very least) and DO NOT ANSWER it in the movies. Talk about RUDE. And you who think its oh so important to text (at the very least, if you HAVE to text, cover it up...) Seriously, when you text your phone puts out a beacon light that even the back row can see, so COVER it. And more over, why does everyone have to be SO tied to their cell phone?! I mean I remember the days where I used to be able to go to dinner without having to hear a ringtone, or someone talking so loudly the whole restaurant stops talking and focuses in on one conversation. When did phone calls take precedence over someone who is sitting in front of you?? I hate going out with people only to be usurped by a phone call. It sucks, makes me feel like I'm not worthy of their undivided attention, that there is something they would rather be doing or someone they would rather be talking to. I don't know about the rest of you, but it's sad how much we rely on our telephones nowadays. I still remember the days were you would come home and check messages on your HOME PHONE, to see if you had missed anything, now everyone thinks you have to jump when the phone rings and wonders why you don't immediately jump when that ringtones goes off...(or maybe it's just me, who doesn't feel like being tied to my phone...) People think everything is so urgent and must have right now, that I think people have forgotten how to live in the moment and just be free sometimes. Everyone is in such a rush nothing gets done right anymore. Everyone is in such a rush...they are just rushing through their lives. Sometimes to the point were they aren't really busy but think they are, because there is now this pressure to have it "right now," when it probably isn't that urgent....Something that used to take a week now is only allowed to take a day, and that my friends, is ridiculous. I think I should start writing editorials...haha. I am really wishing I was tired. Oh well. I'll end this here.
Saturday, 02 August 2008
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Wacky Wednesday - a bit delayed
so once again I have been busy with other things and totally forgot about my weird Wednesday blog, so here's this weeks Wacky news. MONTAUK MONSTER.
I have been making cupcakes ( out of clay) and shrinky dinks for a little shop near by. They offered to sell my jewelry if I would make some cupcake themed jewelry as well. So I decided to begin learning how to make my own beads with fimo and sculpey and then found my old toy shrinky dinks and began designing with those as well. So It's been a full week.
EDIT: the Cupcake store backed out of our agreement, so now I have tons of cupcake earrings and nothing to do with them. GAH.
Thursday, 24 July 2008
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Wacky Wednesday (a little late)
Lots of stuff has been happening so my Wednesday post got moved, sorry about the inconvience for all you that read this. Haha. Anyways...
my new gripe is about unusual names, now I love unique names but i think some people have gone too far and I found a judge in New Zealand that feels the same way.
Her name is WHAT!?!
What's the most horrendous name you have come across?
LP
Wednesday, 23 July 2008
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Currently Listening
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By Bryan Adams
I Though I'd Seen Everything
see relatedMusic is Life.
Tonight was the Bryan Adams and Foreigner concert. I swear I have wanted to see him in concert for so many years it isn't even funny and tonight was a dream come true, literally.
The Pictures
Wow. more later, after I have sleep.
AMAZING.
going off to dreams of Mr. Adams..*sigh*
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